I promise to be a better blogger...

So, you know how people say it'll always get better. I could never believe that cause it seemed the very next day was a downward spiral. Then I realized that you have to truly believe and push and try for things to improve. You can't just sit around and wait. I got a new job at Starbucks and I have to say it's amazing. I leave there feeling good about the day and the things that I did even if I spilled gross coffee grounds on my boss the first day. :)

On another note I opened myself up last night. Told him something I thought I never could. It really did help. Then he held me and made me smile. I love you. I can say this now because you can't see it, but you'll here it. When I get the guts.

I like where things are right now. I won't let them go.

He got me Flowers..

My birthday was not too long ago and I got the best present of all time. Lilies and a ballon. That's all I have ever wanted and I finally got it. They are blooming quite beautifully I have to say. Yesterday I hung out with some really amazing people. We didn't do much, but just there company made my day. I love that feeling... Not a care in the world just having fun. And that's when it happened. It was all going so well and then you started acting weird. I didn't like it. It gave me Nightmares last night. I dreamt that my friend and I were in a lost town in one of the biggest collisions of all time. We walked away looking mauled and surprisingly nobody in the town seemed to care. It was like nothing happen. As if we didn't exist.

Today, I went about my day as if everything were fine and right as we pulled into the school we almost hit a huge tractor. I cried. It's so weird how the world gets back to you like that...

This is..

So this is me. I'm not much of a blogger, but I thought I'd give it a shot. I mean what's there to lose right? So what do I talk about?The day by day struggles that can either keep me going or drag me down. The beautiful faces I see everyday of my life. They're  friends that kept me Hoping and Dreaming. Or do I talk about that amazing face I wake up to almost every morning, but can't say a word about. I should consider deleting that last sentence, but I won't. I'll tell you what I love, what I dream, what hurts me, and what I do in this crazy mad place we call home. This is me. This is what I have to offer. 

Enjoy :D <3